Today, my feeling is so empty, there is no activities at all. I don't know what in my mind, I feel that so lonely eventhough my family is suround me. Sometimes, I would like to go far away that nobody can find me, but I can not do that because I don't want to stay far away from my grandchilds, you know, I love them very much more than my self. They are so cute and smart, they always make me laugh and happy.
But I am so confuse in my mind, about my destiny, that God always give me many things in contradiction. Almost all of my dreams come true, which I have two kids who are good and devoted children. But why I am still something in my mind. Actually, I must be happy because everything is going smooth and easy in my life, like both of my kids have a good job and career and have happy family so far.
Oh God, please give me a clue that can make me release in my mind, I can not stand any longer with my burden. I would like to get rid of it, which make me sometimes unhappy and desperate.
I wish God bless me, always give me support, guide me and lead me to overcome all of my problem.
